18 December 2009

welcome to the crazy horse west

my head spins

and i reach for the wall

something to grab onto

light refracts into blue halos

my vision crackles

i feel like i am

watching an old cassavetes film

my knees give out and i collapse

in the cold corner

but i don't

remember collapsing

just sinking

waking up feeling

like if i stop trying

i am going to throw up

i feel disconnected

nauseous

embarrassed

i sit and drink my warm water

and try to regain

some reference of stabilty

this may take a while

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